and so it is...friends ;)

I had resigned myself from blogging for a while... after reading the responses of my morbidness i thought a while... and in truth i wasn't planning on responding. but today... today the wind was just right... the smell of fallen leaves so perfect... i twitched till i found a working pen. all darkness contains some light and all light contains some darkness, so says Chassidus, so says the ancient Chinese [as in ying and yang] etc. etc. so stop thinking in binary terms... it hurts the world.

here i wonder-
in this place of unimagineable stillness-
where language and thought
blend seemlessly,
endlessly-
a troupe of ballerinas
playing
on the last ivory keys of sensation.

here i walk-
in this indifferent city
of indifferent people
that in its repulsion
give me
the wallpaper
for my endless
blue space.

Here i am suffocated-
by a wind that is both
invigorating
and crippled.
here-
where the world seems perfect
in its imperfections-
awesome
and suicidal-
fatalistic
in its
breathtaking
sadness.

Only here-
under a sky quilted
with lost visions
is the expanse great enough
to relieve my thoughts
from a vessel
of broken
words.

here-
is the port of the emigrant soul
here-
is darkness that mothered light
here-
is the fragmented mirror
slilently reflecting
the disquiet of universal
wholeness.